It’s been a week since I have written. My mind has been elsewhere, everywhere.

Last weekend, while watching TV, I saw a commercial that tore at every emotion. I saw a commercial for a child who wanted to be adopted, a child that wanted a forever family.

The next day, I went to the website and watched hundreds of videos of children who wanted families. My heart sank. I cannot get these images out of my heart.

All they want is to be loved. All they want is someone to be proud of them. All they want is a family of their own.

I get incredibly caught up in myself. I get caught up in my day to day. I get caught up at work, I get caught up in parenting. I made a vow to myself that in 2019 I would take better care of myself and love myself.

I tried to just turn the page. I tried to close out the browser window and stop watching the videos of children who would like families. I just couldn’t.

I have spent the last week trying to figure out if I could help one of these kids. Then I watched more videos of children who don’t want to be separated from their siblings.


I wish I could take them all in. I realize that as a single mother I am a bit over my head. Like most people, I live paycheck to paycheck and after the bills are paid there is a small amount to spoil my son.

Sometimes I wish my bank account was as big as my heart.


So finding it hard to donate. Finding it hard to foster or adopt. Frustrated with myself beyond belief because I can’t figure out a way to help these children.

At best, all I can do is spread awareness. Perhaps further down the road, I will have the means to answer the calling.

Check out, please. xoMS